i trying hard not to eat after lunch before dinner. My pants so tight :( my bmi in danger zone. So i should ask my baby fangs to eat for me. I can't enjoy. She must enjoy. Lets go buy junk food ok. :) i love my darling

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To . My darling fangs
Haha. I finally found a way to update my blog. Its a very good way to conver message to you. I going to blog and blog. Till you found out ok. Its going to be suprise.
Lets see how long you take to browse thur my blog and notice it. This coming weekend i feel like lets go play table tennis. Den we maybe can go swim at the school swimming pool =x else. We go the swimming pool you wanted . Jurong one. Should be fun.
The food we ate on sunday super nice. We should go there more. But not everyday. =X haha
I now abit not feeling well. I guess i got flu. Ah chew chew. I can't report sick :( lesson too hard to cope.
Pants too tight. Very hard to maintain. I controling myself not buying food during break. But today. But today. I saw my friend eating bee hoon with egg . Hot dog and saw the egg yoke leaking out. I lent 2 bucks and buy. :( haha den i ate my one pack of chip. I don want to be a fat guy.. You run away. I can't catch so i must keep fit. Chase you need stamina :) haha ok i stop here. I scare type so much words i can't post it.

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hi baby monster. i updated my blog ! haha i keep trial and error the name of my blog link. i forgotten. =(
Its been months i din update my blog, cause i forget what blog is used to do. But i know what blog can do now ! tell the whole whole wide wide world. my baby monster is non other den !! BABY MONSTER ! haha lame rite. its you silly gal. who pinch me, bite my hair off. all silly stuff. haha just that u smile =) i dun care .. hee. 1.20 am lao . i going to sleep. cya tml ! i love you. fangs

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12.07AM!! last day of RP studying days.. I wander what mood will i be..How do i feel in class from the 1st hour of the class and the last hour of the class. haha
My sis dam funny .. i help my friend keep one turtle.. den she say.. den she show me a turtle toy.. "i got too" den i was like PENG la.. i din know my big sis can so lame 1.. haha

Today consider my last day in rp playing table tennis as a RP student =) should be happy.. haha but some how b4 i go in army.. i sure go back play unless i am working .. but i still dig time to go training.. haha.

From table tennis i learn alot of things. but i am not sure what thing i learn.. =x just some things that help..

Oo.. I learn sth new from table tennis today..ELMO is a very dirty toy.. HAHA his hands and fingers like to crawl around.. (haha RP Table tennis ppl) sure know 1..

shall blog again tml .. IF i rmb .. IF i want .. IF i have things to talk abt..
bye blog. =)

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So long never update the blog lao.. i guess its time too haha
I been tagged by huimin .. it says state 8 random fact about myself.
1) I am chubby!! ( haha i can bounce down the stairs without injury)
2)My room is super messy ( Just too lazy to keep my room )
3)My goal is to understand human brain ( i dun know how to start )
4)I love to fish =) (may it be the rain, mosquitoes, sun.. i just like it)
5)My weight is 70KG (wah that is so....)
6)I like gals with super cute dimples and very nice complexion cannot too short cannot too tall cannot too slim. ( I AM so greedy =x HAHAHA )
7)I dun like girls that like to scream for nth .. ( some time i feel like killing them )
8)I am 21 years old this year.. ( I should act like one.. but i think i am not)

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Its Saturday night.. I dun wanna to say at home.. but i dun wanna go anywhere too... i land myself.. in the middle of no where.. Just below my block.. Head left or Head right? No idea.. haha .. In the end .. i sit down at a windy void deck a few blocks away.. sit there.. nearly 1 hour..
I believe there are people out there... feeling the way i am now.
Last semester for the polytechnic life.. I have a lot of things left undone.. CE , PP , FYP2 !... and 4 modules!!
Soon i will miss RP's life.. The life at 2nd floor toilet ... 7th floor conray's office.. The stairs case of w6.. The white color classrooms of RP.. the sits at food heaven .. sport hall. 15 weeks left to visit this places as a RP student.. LOL



Its not the hatred, but its the love..

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Hiaz still go k pool.. Lifeless !! BUT today K pool ALOT ALOT Of gals!! .. i guess even more den guys..BUT..(so what if there are alot of gals?) haha. See also danger.. Later cannot walk out of k pool.
I got this sudden feeling wanna play table tennis.. Haha this whole week din train much.. more of playing..
I getting round and more round !! DIE lao la.. i guess my weight increase 1kg.. My face and tummy is over size..=( I look so round.. every time i look intro the mirror.. I feel my life is getting more and more bored.. Should do something about it.. Been trying to DO my PP.. But is hard to find resources, 95% of the resources need to pay !.. 3 percent of them is 10 years old.. other 2 percent.. is not Singapore context.
Donated 5 dollar to Singaporepools .. =( 5 dollar can let me punch 2 game of race to 3.. I wanna get some money to "invest" in my room..
1. New wall color
2.New closet
3. TV
4.Rearrange the room.
I feel not so .. "home" everytime i step in my room =(
So sianz... can some one COME online can chat with me!! ... its 4.46am ONLY.. =)
LOL. i type that sentence Titus came online... WAH.. dam zhu..
I wanna tio 4d tml !! 1st prize !!
Hope it happen =)

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HI!.. BYE.. NITES.
( When will it end?)

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ARh.. got a feeling of now what again.. what to do next.. (i wander should i find myself a "LAZY's life guild book") but that book should be written by myself.
I think it been a week not blogging.. NO idea what to blog .. even for this post.. No idea what i can write...
This 2 weeks have been going back to play pool again.. I lose and lose and lose and lose todae.. $ keep coming out from the wallet.. Only manage to win the last 2 game with a guy that just wanna jio me to play.
Pool is really a "imaginary game" I tends to imagine what happen to the balls after i hit it... blah blah.
Peter todae zai.. jio me go play pool. with only 2 dollars in his pocket, this is what normally he do.. PLay and play.. den when closing the table. "EH i bo liu leh" den give me that kind of face. "You gonna pay for me =)"
but nvm.. todae we all "free punch" him.. we just aim and whack him for fun for free for nothing.
4.26am.. staring blankly at the laptop.. , unable to sleep... Even though my eyes feel tired.. but onces i LAND on my bed. i just can't sleep.. I wander whats wrong with my room... I just can't sleep... Just simply can't. Really is a form of torture..
secs feel like mins ... mins feel like hours... hours feel like days.. this is how i feel now.. (at 4.30am) Long shen intro me a way to run up and down my flat's stairs.. BUT i dun dare... some more its the 7th month..
Because i onces dream... of .. when i walking up the stairs.. I see this women with long hair... back facing me.. and i forget and dun wan to remember the 2nd half of the dream.. So.. the Next day i walk the stairs. I REALLY DID SEE a lady back-facing me.. with LONG HAIR.. I NEARLY shout "NB CB!! KNN" cause its so REAL.. 100% what i dream.. and. the weird part is..
Imagine .. u back-facing the stairs.. ok. Some one walk up and make noise.. will u turn back and take a quick look or a peep, who or what isit...
I notice that lady DIN move and look back.. even after i walk half way up... That makes it more scary..
I am a weird person.. or i got a weird brain, It likes to come out with fucking scary images of FACE... dead ppl.. or non human face.. just keep flash and flash..
si bei sianz..
HELP ME SOMEONE!! HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP...
help me....

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AR!! Onces again... i wake up and.. Do nth !! .. I tried to sleep 2 hours ago.. and 2 hours later.. I just can't sleep!!
SHEN AH.. dun play me.. If the god dun let me sleep so early. that means i need to do sth therefore i can sleep.. LOL LAME!!!
For the past 30 mins i playing games from my hand-phone, haven really explore my phone. I guess phone is just a item to wake me up for school... let me listen to songs on the way to sch and back home.. haha no more.
My flu haven recover but i guess cough is getting better. . . going to be 5 am soon i dun know i can fall asleep or i stay awake till i go training..
TORTURE AR!!!.. help help help.. =(

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I TIO my first 4d !! .. BUT i won only 15 dollars.. =( BUT I SPENT 28 dollars.. At first i was so happy.. WOO TIO 4d !! huat ar.. 5 dollars big.. "I BET" den the number its under consolation .. I though still got quite some money to take... but after i called my dad to ask.. ONLY WIN 15 dollar... sianz ..
But nvm.. take it as a start.. haha true winning is knowing when to stop.
When to have dinner with all the old old friends.. lol din know fu going to treat ... Her birthday coming soon... must plan something lao..
5am.. Cough... flu... wah .. dam hard to sleep.. I hear marbles sound.. rolling left and right every time in the middle of the night... and people walking with heels.. walking above my floor.. Every time i hear... i get awake.. =(
This 3 weeks of holidays, i will not waste it.. But i dun know how to use it.. HAHA.
I will listen songs.... till i feel sleepy..

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AR... MY NOSE BLK.. SIANZ.. later must sleep with mouth open.. for air intake and letting out air.. LIPS WILL TURN DAM dry by tml..
When play Pool today again! wah k pool dam alot of people... but lesser and lesser familiar faces.
So tired now.. but i fear when i off the lights and tries to sleep, i feel awake again.. HAHA i should sell my bed away to those people who feel sleeply 24/7 .. My bed got that"Awake Aura"

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Finally a break from school... A break from waking up at 6.15 am.. Its friday!! woo ! ok .. so ?
Still watching tv.. and slacking on the sofa.. AND i got flu .. (maybe thanks so some one!) feel dam weird and weak, stamina is getting worst den ever. Just from normal training .. i can feel dam tired.. dam weak. Need to save $$ now.. Hope to save up to 1k+ in the next half year..
2Pm now.. NO idea what to do next.. Other den blogging here.. Nth nice on tv.. watching Discovery channel now..
sianz sianz sianz ...

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HAHA i am the first one to reach my class.. On the way to school.. so little people .. I can see that most of the people turn lazy during the last 2 weeks of the school.. All pon school 1 by1 .. but i missed 4 Lesson lao!.. can miss the 5th .. but. i still came.. no idea why, maybe i have nth to do at home other than sleep?
Holidays coming ... I see it coming.. but i dun feel it coming..

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Look at the time !! HEY ITS going 5am !! I SHOULD NOT ORDER RED BULL... feel so weird now... I want to sleep.. tomorrow i got school !!! ... 8.45 have to reach class.. but i prefer to reach by 8.10... If not .. walking to school later then normal time.. will have lots of people.. i feel myself weird.. i prefer to walk.. places or path that have lesser people den crowed.
Lying on the bed now..can't really sleep.. I been lying here.. eyes closed.. brain working.. for nearly 90 mins !!.. Worst part .. i am not dreaming of nice things... or not much happy things to think or imagine.. only funny things i can think is.. We at peter house playing after we have supper..
LOL Darren vs Peter.. they two "fighting" .. both of them on the bed fighting.. hitting each other hard.. Darren overpower Peter by mass and strength .. so Peter use other tactic... he tries to pinch or .. squeeze Darren's boots ! lol.. Darren shout "GIVE UP I I GIVE UP" Sibei funny !! cannot stand watching it..
After the fight.. we use peter laptop to view friendster.. See his "indo chio bu" and really ... is Dao chio bu !!" we keep see who more chio using friendster.. LOL.. like a group of tiko peh .. haha..
Poor peter can't sleep now.. Keep kpkb .. abt the gal he "liked" for like 5 years lao.. i can't imagine we can talk about that topic for like 5 years !! I dun know how long this can last..
HOW HOW !! 1 hour more i need to go bath .. brush teeth .. den go take bus ... den take mrt... den walk to sch.. walk to class room..ARR!!.. I wanna go school cause i dun have things to do AT HOME!. and after school i can go training !.. haha . but tml like bo ppl.. ONly got me .. + the china team =x or maybe got "sexy body" (<--- a guy)
Feeling a bit sick now.. body feeling hot.. nose hot too... eyes red red feeling..
What i need now.. is laughter ... (BUT dun suddenly .. got laughter in my room..plz.. ) what i mean is .. i wanna to "lighten" myself.. By luffing.. But what is the 'weight" is on me.. i have no idea.. or i dun wanna to know. LOL
KNN EVEN NOW PETER STILL KPKB me abt the gal..every words he use "CAPS".. but nvm.. what are brothers for.. nvm i dun mind listen him kpkb-ing even for 5 years more..
Eyes so dry now.. i wanna go school !! but i scare i buay ton in class.. some more its accounting.. week 16 !!.. faci say its a summary of what learn.. ( MEANS ALOT OF THINGS TO DO). I wander how many people will turn up for tml lesson..
Been playing pool for the past 3 days.. LOL the "feeling" of Pool is kind of coming back.. But everytime play with either old uncle if not guys.. sianz!!BO gal =x haha
Looking blanking in my room.. with the lights off.. its DARK ! .. I see nth . (I dun wan see tings too !! ) haha.
I guess i not sleeping.. maybe i go school even earlier.. AND sit in the class room.. with the class still off... And no one in the class.. pluck in my ear piece.. BLAST ! woo .. I dun know why i love it.. MAYBE I AM WEIRD... BUT halima come sch so early !! cfm she will be the 1st one in the class.. LOL. pray hard later she pon clasS!.
I made peter so sad when playing pool with him .. i told him "Hey peter look.. at other table.. what u see? most of the table are couples.. Den look at us.." LOL .. He sianz diao.. with the expression .. "WHY !! GOD !! WTF !! HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME, I WAN MY _______"
Dun know what else to write.. I feel my blog is the most.. "nt happening/sianz" but i just write what i wanna write but not what other wanna see.. Whats the use of typing things what people wish to see or read. When is the blog is type by ur own hand with your own brain..
Pass 2 days i wake up during only 4 pm .. and sleep around 6 am .. WAH upside down life.. CORK UP!
DIE la.. i feel tired now.. But i dun wanna stay at home sleep but i wanna go sch .. go training.. play table tennis.
I fear i sleep in class.. But i fear more if i can't sleep..
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
LOL i shout that in my mind...
Time to bath !! SCH TIME !! PRAY hard.. got chio bu sit in front of me in the mrt !! pray pray !! HAHA ! LAZY <--- LOSER.

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Yoz blog ! Kan sianz now. ? mind tell me what to do ?
When k pool today .. Played alot of rounds.. AND Dennis still owe me $1.40.. Jio him play he say no $$.. den i create "incentives" for him telling him i let him 1 rack. den he on me.. I guess he is thinking. OMG I SO STUPID to let him 1 rack and play punch. But he nv think .. that how stupid is he.. =x
Half way he went off without a sound.. but everyone knows where he going.. (GR****).
So fun not only playing pool, we have "something else" to view when playing pool.. which u can't normally get from 6.60 per hour.. (I not going to say here cause.. too M18 lao) haha ..Darren most funny of all.. When we say . we can see ppl "zhao geng" He bend down and see.. In the process he is caught by other group of gals.. DAM FUNNY. We try to siam darren.. making clear we dun know him.. lol..
Looking at the date now.. aug 19 .. so fast.. soon .. oct.. nov..dec.. and so on.. Everybody changes.
when i was in primary school, playing rubber/easer game ...
Secondary .. playing cs..
POLY.. no idea?
What i saying is.. what u like now.. what u think now.. will not be the same .. years later.. EVEN Months..
I wander what changes a human mind set. Is is time? or ... The growth of the brain.. or the events/things happen.
My dream is to study/know more about human brain.. which ... is quite impossible (due to my intelligence level) I would like to find answers/Process .. why this and that happen..
Was reading "Art of war" which zhenguang sent me.. Is quite really interesting .. But i want to know how to apply the things i read into my life.. E.g. a quote from the pdf.
"The ground determines the distance.
The distance determines your numbers.
Your number determine your calculations
Your calculation determine you decisions
You decision determine your victory."
So true.. it can be apply in so many things..
I still can come out with a formula why should we study..
We study to have certificates
Certificates to have work
Work to have Money
Money is to eat
eat is to live
Live is for family and loveones.
Though i think its have no link from the "art of war".. But i guess what i wrote is really true too ..

My room is so dead.. so .. " " i can't a word .. i should do something to it.. I see 4 walls .. but not a room of my own. I never felt so happy in my room.. so useless of me.. I have a room of my own. But i dun treat it as my own.. I have a Study table .. that was never used for study..Even during O levels.Have a big closet .. which is not mine.. belong to my sis.. =(
What i love most maybe is just my .. Laptop/desktop .. My "office chair" .. My bed.. Though this 3 things is important.. But...
Using computer seem more and more.. "sianz" computer see me.. i see computer.. OK whats next?
"Office chair" i sit on it.. turn and turn.. But i dun grow taller or what.. =(
My bed.. A bed that can't make me sleep.. Hiaz i dun really cherish what i have. WAKE UP YOUR IDEA.. I forget which teacher during secondary sch days like to say that.
Erm.. what other things i can type now. i have no idea.. but i dun wan to stop typing.. Maybe this is the only thing at this timing.. i can do? I guess i can talk more about myself now.. and read this post... 1 year later. see how much have i change.. mentally.
I see myself as a person with lots of question.. which no answer. Either question that i have answer .. but i dun treat it as a answer. or question with no answer. A really LAZY person.. LoL my MIS faci. saw my msn nick.. den she read.. "LAZY!" .. what a name it suits u !!.. I wan to be a hardworking person .. (LOL i dun believe) I know how to improve myself. but i never do it. Ok.. but why ? thats is a question .. Woo .. 5.18am.. i remember this time.. during my secondary school days.. I should be awake. Lying on the bed.. thinking.. How fun it will be during class.. Haha.. I think my class is the worst in MFSS history.. but i think is the most fun class in the history too.. I remember i tell my DM.. You cut our hair .. destroy the school image.. "Imagine other parents.. when they look at the student of mfss.. most of the guys .. hair CUT till so short.. "bowl cut" What they think? this school full of nerds? " Den my DM "BKB" .. He find alot of other reasons to gave me detention for 2 weeks.. not even letting me study in class. LOL. I so pissed off that time.. he cut 17 guys' hair.. in our class, And we got 18 guys in the class only.. i rmb that well.. Maybe that time he was "into cutting hair" maybe his dream was to open salon.. LOL .. so he will find ways Just to cut your hair..I blog so much i guess no 1.. will even read it to this part.. but nvm ! i continue to blog more! ... So when ppl see.. they move their mouse and click the "X" !! HAHA ! Just like reading the resources.. SO many words? ok .. i close it..
Listening to Windstuck OST .. lol ZAI!.. all of the songs/music let me remember clearly the moive.. i watch it at lest 3 times in the cinema.. 2 times on laptop. KOREAN movie ARE GREAT! esp .. their love story, Action moive.. My sassy galfriend, windstuck, running wild, tycoon, a moment to remember .. I still remember it all.. those are movie that i feel, i am not watching a movie.. its like.. ( dun know how to say).
I dun really like to watch ghost movie, maybe the reason is i can remember the "FACE", even now i typing this sentence.. i recall lot of "thing".Ar... should use this Talent(curse) on my studies..
5.34AM !! woo .. I feel like playing table tennis now.. or pool.. but every time i ask myself.. LAZY How far can you go ??.. Den i "push" myself down the cliff.... OK i drop down again..
Still listening to the Windstruck OST. I can remember how Junjihyun look in her "korean police uniform.. Her long hair!! .. that smile.. LOVE IT!..
Talking abt this.. i rmb .. fang ying.. keep asking everyone .. when u see a gal.. what are the 3 things you look for..
Think for days... i guess i know the 3 thinks..
eyes ! .. smile.. (i told her lips lol..) for the 3th.. i told her is the shoulder.. but i think not really true.. so i guess the 3th point will be.. Can she show who she is with her face? LOL BLUR O.O.. NVM.. i think again.. DOTA TIME!!..... WOO .. ben gave me ip lao.. DOTA DOTA DOTA !

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2.30am ! sat morning ! where is those People that supports to be online and playing dota.. All gone.. Nowadays i feel so.. alone. I see myself and others, not together.. I dun know how to write what i feel.
When amk k pool play pool alone.. i think i lost 50% of the time.. I no longer feel the cue is with me.. So weird holding it.. So hard to hit every ball.. every shot have no confidence.. I wander where my confidence When..
Have you even wonder.. where do confidence come from..? nature or nurture.I really wanna know what i have. No $$, No Car, No LIFE.
3 more lesson left for this semester.. Time pass so fast.. its 2007 now ! and i still remember writing the dates 1997 during primary sch! .. ITS 10 years .. which feel like just next week.. I guess soon very soon . will be 2017 which i may remember what is happening now.10 years later. what will i have, who will i be.. Will i be the someone i want to be. I have idea of how to be the one i want.. BUT i just can't start.. there is barrier blocking ..
Great.. i still can't sleep... Dun feel like playing dota or a3 now.. I notice i am a person that can't stay at home for more den 24 hours.. I feel like swimming so much now.. BUT I SURE no 1 will pei me go.. Peter will say .. its 7th month !! later "they" grab ur legs !!
Even everyone is online... i have no idea what to talk nowadays.. Not that chatterbox anymore.. offline or online.. I sure i am not emo now..
just can't find a word for it..
better go watch tv now.. rather then staring at the computer.. doing the same thing again and again..
I rarly hear my name in school nowadays... lazy , xiao pang.. this shows what? I am not myself.. but i am lazy and xiaopang =)

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Rain stopped. But not in me. HAHA . hiaz i missed wee ling last lesson for her module. Its Friday which feel likes Monday.. SO SIANZ !! Sitting in the living room, watching National Geo... But i not sure what it showing. Don't know what to type now.. Maybe never.. haha !!

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Going 1am NOW! arh.. must sleep soon.. Need to go sch and have ut for tomorrow. Tml is cucumber lesson. 95% will be boring. This few days i feel i am more back to my old self. Doing those things i used to do.Which i guess i feel more comfortable.
So hungry now.. but.. so late and i need to sleep.. Torture..
I don know what things i am writing now.. 100% crap. I guess i continue tml ba. nites.. (lazy) .. i wish myself good night.. =(

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Today was normal, MircoEcon lesson was not really that fun, but what was taught today was quite interesting. And that fat potato still keep touching me.. PENG. keep hitting my shoulder. NON WANDER 4d nv tio b4. pet and pet on my back.. I wander is it because he love the meat i have =x gross !. It was his last lesson with us, so maybe he miss me.. (i feel like puking).
After that, i went for training. I plan not to go this morning and brought nothing with me... but.. What to do. After school have no idea where to go what to do. So .. i still went training.. I go steal the left overs shorts and shirts. AND ! short left was "M" size... So tight, can't move freely. So weird. I nv wore a shorts that small b4. i swear.. After training awhile.. coach starts to talk.. and that went on for almost a hour. Sometimes what he say is very "Rich". There is a lot to learn from him.
Den when he talk i go pick the balls up.. and everybody else was sitting..BO lang help sia.. When going off.. i go keep the box of balls at the "hidden place" den when i rise my head.. I Hit the wall very hard.. the tears like going to come out automatically. Very pain.. like sharp pain. I could feel the .. Growing Buluku. Lucky no one saw.. IF not they luff like mad.
After that we went LGS and eat dinner. And went home..
On the MRT. I feel that FY is going to be over my head. She is trying to bully me whenever she could. During training.. Telling me how tall is others.. when a shorter guy is just in front of her. which was me.. "short short short" was what i am thinking of myself ... at that time.. but nvm.. I not short . who short. -.-.
Reach home. Bath.. and go do my rj.. by the time.. i was so tired i dun know why. i just go to my bed and rest... and fall asleep for some time. That kind of "tired and sleepy" feel really great. At lest that made me want to sleep. Which i am looking for. But why i can't find it now.
Supper time, when chomp chomp.. Just had dinner at Long john at cwp. So i just drink sugar cane.. talk crap. I guess what i enjoy most now, maybe just talking with my friends (include grape prince). Was talking about what Car he want and we order the "paper car" and burn to him, when needed. Conversation was dam funny.
Reach home again.. Played a3.. and train and try to hunt for rares. but.. nth drop.
Going 4.30am now.. I wander what am i thinking.
TML no school, sem 2 fyp haven started. i left with 1 or 2 more free "wed" So i should make full use.. BUT WHAT I AM GOING TO DO TML? Wake up. ? brush teeth ? find food. EAT. Com/Tv. Eat. .... etc.. and sleep ? I sure this is not i want. I always do the things i should not do, and never try or do the things i should.. HOPELESS. Maybe the "should" only happen in dream.
But when you wake up.. Its a dream. nth to be sad or happy about.
WAH kan long post.
During gaming just now, i heard some knocking sound.. WTF. BUT.. What i never do wrong things. The only wrong things is what i do to myself. So nth to be afraid.
You don't drink cause you are thirsty, you drink because you like the drink. Even you will die .. of dehydration. CHIM.. wah .. I go write book lao.

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School tml, i wander i am looking forward to go school or just looking forward not to stay at home. haha.
Tonight weather is so nice, cooling.. + gentle thunder sound. classic!.
I forget what to blog lao.. forget lao oso good. can sleep early.

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Ytd night went to eat ba ku teh with ch and darren. After eatting have no idea where to go. So we decided to find Dennis who should be eating "Grape" So we take turn call to find out his location. No.1 caller called .. he say he at geylang .. No2. caller .. he say he at Adam park.. No3. caller which was me. he tell me at Singapore river.
Den we came with a conclusion, he 100% outside with some grape.. I wander how many grape he have. and had.
After that the more exciting part of the night starts. We when to .. Lower peirce resevior's car park which we go very often, just to slack there. But it was special night. Alot of cars with .. "Couples" or .. Young guys and gals .. or OLD uncle and gal. They are all doing "stun" inside.
Darren who was the most brave just stare at them doing those thing that he normally download =x.
Awhile later Darren came with with a IDEA. Park just next to the car. And SEE clearly what they are doing. I swear i hum that time sia. i hide myself. but the brave darren just stay still and view...
(To be continue)... fu jio dinner.. darren so high .. woo i hope darren saw this post.

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WOo i stay in my room for more den 10 hours since i wake up. I guess i waste enough time. Its time to do my PP research( but i still feel lazy to start finding).
No idea what to blog, and no idea how i land up in this page =). Maybe i run out things to do.

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Its Friday, and i pon school again.. this time really my head feel like busting, Feeling like my neck can't support my head.
Thursday was national day. Stay at home for one whole afternoon untill CH jio go eat sakura. He told me the waitress there chio bu, but its not like what he said.
After that . we went K pool.. haha pool pool pool -.-. And darren JIO me play punch,a rare event. race to 3, and let him 2 rack.HAHA but i still won.
I feel like talking now, but i am so alone in my "torture room" sianz..
Head still quite pain.. really plan to skip the UT later.
If i skip the UT later i won't feel regret.. BUT i am sure i will, if i found out my UT3 results sux.

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CONRAY NB! this post is to KAN u one. NOW LUFF AT ME LA.. SWEE lor..
"hopeless le la""hopeless le la""hopeless le la" the words u say ... Floating inside my head.
Tml in school be careful .. I bring titus's "win" to RAPE U!! GOD BLESS U.

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I guess ytd god saw my blog and grant me to sleep easily, till i don't feel like going to school. Imagine u take 1 hour just to reach woodlands mrt. and 10 mins walk to school and other 5 to 10 mins to my class room, AND the same thing back to my house, this room. The feeling kind of suck.
I WANT TO HAVE A CARRR.. I Feel like working to safe money and get one, but how long that takes ? I really want it so badly. I guess i found long-term goal. But other wish/hope/goal starts to fade. which i really sad.
Went K box today. 9+++ which ends up to 17 per person. All guys k box session which we choose all SAD/LOVE song. The more i listen the worst i got. Until now its still repeating in my brain which i can't control.
Having a brain which i can't control really sux.. Thinking of things i dun wan to think about. Unable to think what i really wants. What i did to you .. my brain.
After k box, went k pool. play like shit. Everything i enjoyed in the past, i can't feel it now.. DOTA/TABLE TENNIS/POOL. WTF .. this 3 things i spent more den 80% of the time playing it other then studying. I HATE it now. In the past, i feel so confident when playing pool, even playing with players that i knew i will lose, i still will fight which others say i gong. That was maybe the only thing i dare to fight for. Others dun talk abt it. LAZY <-- LOSER
I lost every confident i got. I have no idea .. where could i find it back. Maybe what i lost can never be found again.
Can't believe its happening. Only thing i guess i left which maybe i enjoy is maybe FISHING.
Sitting on the jetty, wind blowing on my face, Quiet environment. What can you ask for ? maybe i would hope that is a other person just beside me will enjoying what am i enjoying.
I feel so guilty when my mother treat me well, every night i reach home. She will cook for me just to make sure i filled my tummy. Fish, Soup. Everything. Even drinks !
The more she do this i feel worst. But when i am feeling bad. I guess maybe i turning 20 years old i still treated like a baby. I really want to feed myself, lessen burden of theirs.
Nvm, some day, I find myself a wife and have Baby! Then my parents have grandson to bao lao. Wait for my sis to get married dun know take how long-.- (if they see this post, i guess i can't live to blog a other post)
I starting to like children more. So adorable even when they are crying. I was thinking am i so adorable when i was a baby.
I wrote so much today, maybe blogging more could help my RJ. cause my rj is short. Never exceed 200 words, unless i want to write more.
If life was so easy, like hitting on the keyboard, with letters appearing on the screen. and removing or deleting just hitting the ESC and Backspace. How nice ..
Theres so much i want to do, but i just too weak to do.I really need someone to tell me what to do now. Wasting so much time.

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I beg the shen ar. dun play me.. let me sleep tonight plz..
(testing, shen blog anot. if i sleep well. means they blog and saw my msg)

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Class end early today, around 3.30pm. slack in the classroom awhile before going for training.
I feel so cork up for everything today. Even table tennis which i though i enjoyed the most. The more I play I became so frustrated, feeling so cork i just go change my pants and went back home.
On the way One joker called me just to tell me (ah my mouse spoil) just to say that. ray if u are reading now. (plz laugh at yourself)

I took the EMO bus (966) .. which made me wait like 20 mins for it. 966 is a bus which you can rest, but can't sleep. Its about 45 mins from woodlands to area. Often miss my stop cause i try to sleep...
Today's lesson was so (can't find a word) .. though the problem statement was really interesting, i did not care so much.. After uploaded the (outsource) ppt i start to stone, without much things to do, no one to chat to. I turn to disiao people.
Sometimes blogging may be fun. able to share. But some things/events i should bring it down with me. Rather den creating a soft copy here.

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hiaz. i hiong conray's ppl and "edit" and upload. Really no mood to do sia. feel kind of tired. eye kind of dry.. pimples start popping out.
Suddenly i feel like drinking coffee in a canteen where there the tables and chairs are all white.. and cooling environment.

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F*** myself for not sleeping.
Never knew sleeping was so hard. life is so funny.
Here i am giving the chance to sleep now, but i din.
When i am really tired and sleepy for tml's lesson without any chance to sleep, THEN i regret not sleeping now.
LAME CRAP.
I really want to open my task manager and end those process that is eating up my brain....
worst to worst i have to force shut down =)

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What i always wanted to understand and know is.. What real talents i have? So far, i guess only Conray aka MIstIQ aka Arky aka kan bao chi knows what talent i have. One day i going to expand that talent, till i fear it myself.
2 more weeks.. this semester going to end. time pass so fast. I need to renovate my room, this few weeks i feel my room is like a torture chamber. Whenever i step in the room, i feel i lost idea what to do next. 5 mins feels like 15 mins.. maybe because i never talk in my room, which gave the room the "quiet and dead" environment.
Going to sleep soon, SHEN AR !! JIU JIU WO BA.. give me some Sweet nice dream. which i can't tell that i am dreaming those type.
If i really dream of a really nice dream, i will not tell anyone, just to letting it having a chance to happen.
nights..=)

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Believe it or, DOTA in-house game take forever to start. I can even blog while waiting. back from jogging i din know its so "fun" to run in the dark.. i see alot of uncle, sitting down ..relaxing .. and alot of cats lying on the grass, can see that they are enjoying what they do. "SLACK"
On the way back .. i saw one chio bu ah lian with one old uncle.. wah.. peng they hug tml is the end of world. and i guess the gal drop sth out from the bag and they din notice, and continue huging and playing ..
dota 1st. .blog later again..

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haha 5.30am ! crap i haven sleep. just finish DOTA.

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5.45++ .. 2 hours more of sitting at the spot spot.. there are so many things for me to do, but i am not doing any.. Shit conray go sleep . i wan jio u pai dota. u set away mode . sure downloading "catch them all"
I end today with 2 words.. "KAN SIANZ"

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Sianz sia.. 3.30am now.. can't sleep what can i do ? think of tml is a day to stone more sianz...
The feeling of sitting in front of the computer. staring at the same screen. right click refresh ... got nth to do.. SUCKS.

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This is the first time i blog, i really wonder what should i blog? what happen today ? what is going through my mind? what i saw? blah blah... -.-
OK . so i guess i start talking about what happen today! it just a normal Friday which is normal for me to have. Conray Jio me go play pool and kelvin will be there.. den i ON him. Don't know why i got the urge to beat him in pool =x i guess maybe i sick of getting owned by him in DOTA.
So we went amk k pool after school. I guess today was the 1st day i walk out from school to MRT that i still can see the sun. The feeling is so nice.. Like just come out from prison.
Play pool for awhile .. but after beating him in pool like no feel sia =x maybe he never give me the face (LAZY!! U WON ME, HOW COULD THAT HAPPEN!!!)
I really wonder what i am thinking, what can i do to make myself not to ask what am i thinking??
have you though of that before?
Today accounting lesson sianz sia.. I forgot what i learn, or what is taught ? all i remember is today is accounting lesson.
Dun know what to blog lao.. i guess i get more ideas what to blog the more i blog.
SIANZ .. dota time -.- f**** going to be owned by kelvin again. I hope he see this post. I sure he feel happy.LOL

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